you are the girl

you are the girl
who burned my house down
as i shattered the glass
and walked on
till my feet bled.

you are the girl
who left stones unturned
in the water like beacons
to guide me out
where i could not touch the bottom.

you are the girl
who sent my heart out to sea-
for there it could be perfect
in ways not possible
while it still resides 
in me.

you are the girl
who i will soon come to find
when i am no longer blind
no longer bare-
no longer blistered
as ruthless as time.

but keep quiet my dear,
the house is almost ashes-
when it is gone
you will have nothing left
but the shame that stood
as i endured you

and the evil i wished for
as i understood you.